After the PC Fair,while i was walking back to KLCC i took a few shoots.It was actually my very 1st time to shoot KLCC. =)
it took me half an hour to figured out how to do this effect!
sorry for the bad composition as i took this with the 50mm prime lens.
i like this shoot a lot! =)
Today,i received an forward email which make me feel very angry with the writer.
Here's what the writer wrote;Apabila nafsu mengambil-alih kewarasan
Saya menerima kiriman email dari seorang sahabat beserta beberapa keeping gambar yang ingin saya kongsikan dengan para pembaca Blog ini.
Menurut sahabat yang mengirim, kejadian ini berlaku di Jalan Raja Laut, KL baru-baru ini. Seorang pemuda yang telah mencuri telefon bimbit di sebuah kedai handphone berdekatan telah berjaya diberkas oleh orang-ramai.
Beliau diikat dan dibelasah sehingga menyembur darah dari mulutnya. Lihatlah tindakan zalim yang dikenakan ke atas si pencuri. Memang siapa pun tidak bersimpati dengan pencuri, tetapi negara kita mempunyai undang-undang dan peraturan. Kesalahan pemuda ini adalah mencuri telefon bimbit, apakah begini sepatutnya hukuman ke atas beliau.
Lebih dahsyat lagi apabila pemuda tadi menyerahkan kad pengenalannya. Cuba lihat betul-betul. Rupa-rupanya beliau baru berusia 15 tahun!
Diusia ini jika pun beliau telah mencuri si budak kecil ini tidak akan didakwa di mahkamah terbuka tetapi mahkamah juvana yang mendengar kes yang melibatkan kanak-kanak. Mengapa beliau diperlakukan begini sekali, apakah mereka yang membelasah beliau yang rata-rata terdiri dari orang Melayu/Islam itu tidak usul-periksa terlebih dahulu sehingga tidak mengenal antara kanak-kanak dan orang dewasa.
Memang budak ini mungkin telah mencuri, tetapi stigma yang akan dipikulnya lantaran dibelasah sedemikian rupa di usia muda ini pasti akan diheretnya sehingga ke tua nanti. Apakah kesudahnnya nanti, apa akan jadi kepada hidup beliau nanti?
Sepatutnya budak ini diserahkan kepada pihak polis untuk diambil tindakan dan sepatutnya begitulah juga mereka yang bernfasu yang telah mengambi kesempatan ke atas beliau yang sebenarnya lebih hina dari budak yang mencuri itu.
Here are some of the pix which forwarded together in the email;
-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Beliau diikat dan dibelasah sehingga menyembur darah dari mulutnya. Lihatlah tindakan zalim yang dikenakan ke atas si pencuri. Memang siapa pun tidak bersimpati dengan pencuri, tetapi negara kita mempunyai undang-undang dan peraturan. Kesalahan pemuda ini adalah mencuri telefon bimbit, apakah begini sepatutnya hukuman ke atas beliau.
Undang undang dan peraturan?
Can it stop all the raising snacth thief cases?
What about those victim that lost thier live?!
Everyday we read the same news.Dont we?
So tell me now,what can undang undang and peraturan do?TELL ME!Lebih dahsyat lagi apabila pemuda tadi menyerahkan kad pengenalannya. Cuba lihat betul-betul. Rupa-rupanya beliau baru berusia 15 tahun!
I dont f*cking care how old is the thief.Crime is crime.
What about all the YOUNG snatch thief victim that lost thier live?Do they have a second chance to be alive?
Diusia ini jika pun beliau telah mencuri si budak kecil ini tidak akan didakwa di mahkamah terbuka tetapi mahkamah juvana yang mendengar kes yang melibatkan kanak-kanak. Mengapa beliau diperlakukan begini sekali, apakah mereka yang membelasah beliau yang rata-rata terdiri dari orang Melayu/Islam itu tidak usul-periksa terlebih dahulu sehingga tidak mengenal antara kanak-kanak dan orang dewasa.
Memang budak ini mungkin telah mencuri, tetapi stigma yang akan dipikulnya lantaran dibelasah sedemikian rupa di usia muda ini pasti akan diheretnya sehingga ke tua nanti. Apakah kesudahnnya nanti, apa akan jadi kepada hidup beliau nanti?
Sepatutnya budak ini diserahkan kepada pihak polis untuk diambil tindakan dan sepatutnya begitulah juga mereka yang bernfasu yang telah mengambi kesempatan ke atas beliau yang sebenarnya lebih hina dari budak yang mencuri itu.
I went to the PC Fair on last Sunday.Didn't buy anything as my main purpose is to shoot the event but it was...
so crowded!!
Since it was so crowded,i didn't manage to shoot many pix but here are some of the chix promoters that i took. =)
Anyone know the girl on the left side?She look so sweet!
Ok,now non-chix shoot.
It's going cheap!
Working at PC Fair is fun cuz there are so many chix.Look at his smile then u'll agree!
Wonder why he wear glass?bcoz he can peep more chix without them knowing!Haha.Just kidding...Anyway he's my friend,Aaron. =)
I dont look at chix only lar,baby also cute what!
Alrite thats all.Hmm.. which chix u like? =P
Thanks! =)
This is the latest hitz from Linkin Park.I cant wait for thier album next month 15th!
If u want this song,buzz me on MSN. =)
Last nite,i went to Taman Connaught pasar malam alone after work coz i wanna shoot some pix.
Went to the bridge and sat there alone at the middle of the bridge,lot of strangers passed by and looked at me.
It's a strange feeling and at first i was nervous but knowing that i m not doing something wrong,so i just dont care what they think and continued to shoot.
the shooting place...
same pix.high contrast.
I was there for an hour fifthteen minutes.Even myself was shocked that i was there for that long!Took around 80+ pix and this is the one like the most.. =)
B&W...something is not right with this pix.Hmm... it seems like the pasar malam part is too bright.Tried to adjust with PS but this is the best i can do.PS noob. =)
It's a new experience for me and i m lovin' it. =) u should try it too!
Mmm..btw..ya,i like B&W and high contrast pix..
Ok,now some unrelated random pix..
do u have depression?
are u searching for the right Queen?
this was taken at =8) birthday party
Hmm..there are not much pix,really wish i have more time to shoot. =(
Oh ya,here are 2 more pix which i took with my old cam last time. =)
non-edit
edited brightness and contrast.I know the captions a bit potong but erm...i like it. =D
Thanks for viewing! =)
Alrite,since i got the lens yesterday i've been non-stop takin pix with the lens.Not very satisfy with my skill and there are so many to improve.But the lens is just awesome.Very. =)
Here are some of the pix taken with the 50mm lens,please bear with the not-so-nice pix...Again,Mr Noob in da house. =)
Jason,the first victim for my new lens.He came to my shop just after i got the lens so yea..shoot him! =)
This is where i had my breakfast this morning.Kopitiam Section 14,PJ.When i reached that time there are not much people. =)
And here are two pix of a cat which i took this mornin while i was havin breakfast.
Yes,i LIKE cat actually. =)
Hmm oh ya,i normally call a cat as "Mi-el" in cantonese but some frens told me it's actually called "Mau".One of my friend will keep laughing everytime when she hear i say "Mi-el Mi-el".Hmm..how do u call a cat in cantonese?
I think the cat must be posing when i point my camera to...him?(i think it's a him.Gua.)
Ok,lets just assume the cat is a male lar.
Hmm...sorry but i have to say again that the 50mm lens is really good!Awesome!I m lovin' it!
It's actually a good lens for potrait shoot.I've taken some potrait of my friends but i m yet to ask them permission to post it here and i m still finding people to be my victim! =)
So yea...anyone?
=)
Finally got my new lens yesterday! =) It's the Canon most affordable lens and the best lens i would say in it's price range.I m still learning and playing around to take more nice pix.I m lovin' it. =)
Some pix of my baby's new baby..
=)
A few hours after i bought my new camera,i tried and did my very own first product shoot with a D.I.Y-ed light tent.I made the light tent even before i bought my new camera. =)
So yea,here are some of the pix.Sorry for the blurness,i m still figuring out what's the best solution to resize my pix without losing much of the quality(Thanks a million Rames!) and the lens i m using really limited my shooting options. =(
Anyway,here are some pix of the Nokia latest E-series model,E65.
and this is the D.I.Y light tent i made.Ugly huh?
Oh ya,if anyone interested with this phone the current retail price as on 3rd April 07 is RM1720.Currently available in Red or Mocca colours and it comes with;
-Battery
-T.Charger
-USB Cable
-256MB Micro SD
-Case
-Etc...
=)
Alrite,here are some flowers pix which i took on the 2nd day after i bought my new camera.Those flowers are planted by my Dad's at outside the house. =)
Sorry for the not-so-nice effect,just bear with it aite.Mr Noob in da house. =)
and this one,my very first PS-ed effect pix. =)
Hmm...i just realised the 3rd and 4th pix are almost the same.See,told u i m noob!
More pix coming soon.Many thanks!
=)
Hi everyone..
It's almost 2 months ago since i last updated my blog.Hmm..but i m back again.(i guess) =)
Thanks to my new camera,Canon 350D.Got it few days ago and i took some pictures...so yea.i m back to blogging WITH more picture this time.
Hmm..i was planning to create a new blog AGAIN but end up,i stick back to this loussy blog.I deleted a lot of old entries rubbish and revamped a bit.I still Keeping all the lyrics entries and a few of the entries which i dont feel like..erm..delete it yet.Maybe.
As u can see,i've finally put the shoutbox AGAIN in my blog.It was there before for a few days then i removed it and now i put it in AGAIN.Don't ask me why.I do not know.But as usual i always makes stupid decision.
I know the shoutbox look a bit weird with it's giant size but hmm...i like it that way.Again,dont ask why.
So u guys spam it aite. =)
Btw,i would like to say sorry to all my friends for my recent moody-emo-stupid-silent-attitude.I really appreciated for all the advises.
Hmm..i m gonna be fine aite. =) My sincere apology and thanks to u guys!
=)
alrite,lyric again. =)
anyone like this song?
Can someone pls translate the meaing into English? =)
Any help will be much appreciated!Thanks in advance...
first of all..wohoo...finally i m updating my blog again.ahaha.. :P
ok,this story happened a few years back,when i was studying in form 4.
went to yumcha wit my buddies yesterday n suddenly we talked abt it and we felt tat it's quite a silly n funny thing we did!haha..so,i decided to post this up and share wit u guys. =P
ok here it goes...
When i was studying secondary school,i got no transport.Everywhere i wan to go i need to take those stupid-useless-not-so-convenient public transport.
One day,my close buddy(Aaron) got a motorcycle from his dad.Err...actually he curi curi pakai only.It was a quite old motorcycle.The model is err...Suzuki duno wat 70.If i not mistaken lar,i only remember its a quite a buruk wun.
So,from tat day we alwiz go lepak n round round wit the kapcai.Well u can imagine it,u got no transport then suddenly got a kapcai.huulaaa..apa lagi?hehe..but no no,we are not rempits okeh? "-__-
On one nite,while we was long kai-ing wit the kapcai...we hv no idea where to go as we went to a lot of places edy in the few weeks after we got the kapcai.
Then,suddenly my buddy came out wit an idea.
Me : Oi,bored lar...where to go?
My buddy : Err...wat abt PD?
Me : WHAT?PD?u mean Port Dickson??
My buddy : Yeah
Me : OMG.Tats dem far away okeh?And u want to to there wit this motor buruk?
My buddy : No,it's not that far.Follow da highway i think can reach in 45min like tat only.*he trying hard to persuade me*
Me : U sure ah?can reach meh?
My buddy : Can la..lets go lar.Nowhere to go!
Me : Err...Ok la,lets go!!
**FYI,we both doesnt have lisence.yes,not even L.And...the kapcai no roadtax wun."-_-
So,we departed from Serdang at around 12midnite+...
After abt 10min journey where we was on the highway,suddenly it started raining!
Oh shit...but luckily it was only drizzling.Then,we stopped under a fly over as we want to wear raincoat.OMG,my buddy told me tat there's only 1 raincoat raincoat wit lotsa hole n koyak koyak wun.
So,he worn it n we shared the raincoat.Imagine,he ride the kapcai and i hug him from behind to avoid hit by the rain.It's pain okeh.
Half of the journey,we xchange place and it's my turn to ride the kapcai.
OMG,when we reach the highway...err sowie i duno wats the name of the highway but u know wat?It was totally dark as there's no lamp post at all on the highway!*ask Mr Samy abt this okeh?*
The lamp from the kapcai is absolutely not bright enuf.We need to follow the side line on the highway which is in white color to see the direction.No kiddin okeh.
So dark,so cold and so scary.But somehow,we felt it was kinda fun.hehehe..still small mah tat time. =P
Okeh,we finally reached PD in abt an hour.When we reached PD town,OMG..it's even more scary.The whole town no ppl wun.The only place got ppl is at the police station.
We wanted to piss.Very kap.But no toilet.We beh tahan,stopped at a place on the roadside and then only we realised we are standing nex to an empty shop...look very scary also.But we dun care abt it...all we want is pisssss...The wind is blowing at the speed 25km/h quite heavy at tat time.It was very cold.
While we was pissing,all a sudden we heard "woofff,woffff!!wofffff!!"*dogs barking*
OMFG.We was shocked like mad.Sumore we are pissing okeh.Then we looked around...and looked around..but wadefuk,we din see any dogs!! "-_______-
Without think twice,we ran to our kapcai and zappppp away.I even nothcet zip my pant.....
Then,we went to the beach.We parked on the roadside again and we realised sumthing...
Sumthing tat made us laughed at ourself like shit.
We found a brand new raincoat in the kapcai basket which was hidden under some old newspaper!!
OMG,we all the way from Serdang wit a raincoat buruk tat we both shared...and we found this brand new raincoat after we reached there.Yes,it's a brand new wun.OMG.We juz cant stop laughing at our stupidness...hahaha
Since it was very cold tat time,we both wear the raincoat and decided to walk to the beach.As we walking towards the beach we saw a lot of torch lights flashing on the floor and as we walk nearer,all the lights gone.And seconds later we saw a group of peoples running away.
We have no idea wat happen and seeing they all running away,me and my buddy also doubt tat wheter we shld walk further thinking of maybe they saw shark or pirate or robber or ghost and bla bla bla...
So we faster walk back to our kapcai.
Me : Eh,why tell all run away huh?
My buddy : I dont know le,so weird!
Me : What they doin there wit thier torch light?
My buddy : Maybe they want to collect those cockle/shellfish thingy?
Me : Hmm....maybe they saw us in our raincoat,look like those pegawai or guard and want to halau them huh?
My buddy : Hahahaha!!Maybe!!
kekekek...we never knew wats the reason..but i think we might hv scared them wit our raincoat tat made us look like guard. =P aha!
So..there's nothing much to do in PD.After we lepak for a while,we decided to go back.It was around 2am+ if i not mistaken.
RM3 petrol tat we fueled up b4 we departed from Serdang is finishing.
So we went to search for petrol station nearby.We found one not long after that.
When we reach the petrol station,we saw a guy(a bangladesh) sleeping on a chair.He's the only person we saw so i came down from kapcai and walk to him as we want to pay money and fill the petrol.
Me : Bang...
Bangladesh : ZZzzZZZzzzz
Me : Bang...(Louder)
Bangladesh : ZZzzzzzZZZzzz
Me : Halo Bang!Mau isi petrol bang!(quite loud)
Bangladesh : ZzzzzzZZZzzz
*Since no response,i pat oh his shoulder.A few times.Guess wat?NO RESPONSE AT ALL OKEH!!watdefuk,is he dead?OMG.We want to fill petrol wei.
Then my fren came over wit kapcai and we decided to use the kapcai hon to wake him up.
Kapcai : BINNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!! *sound from the horn*
Bangladesh : ZZzzZZZZzzzzZZZZz "-__-
While we trying to wake him up,suddenly a police patrol car coming in to the petrol station.
Me : Oh SHIT.Police car!!Lets go!
We have no license,no roadtax and i think we do look suspicios.Haha.So,we start the engine and zaaapppppppppp.....
Thank God they din chase us,i think they wan to fill petrol as well.
We wonder how the police gonna wake up the bangladesh.
But who cares?We must keep zaaaping wei.Haha...
Then,we saw another petrol station at the opposite side from the bangladesh station.So we made a u-turn and thank God there are few ppls and the person who take care of the station is not sleeping.Fuh...
So we faster fill up the petrol as we affraid the patrol car will come to this petrol station also if they cant wake up the bangladesh.hahaha
Okeh,petrol fueled up and we are ready to start the journey back home.
When we are leaving the town suddenly my buddy saw the signboard wit the direction to Malacca...
My buddy : Hey,lets go to Malacca?It's not far from here!*pointing his finger at the signboard*
*i forgot how far is Malacca stated on the signboard from PD but err...not tat to far i think.IF by car*
Me : Woi,gila kah!!No no lets go home!!
My buddy : ....ok ok...
So Malacca plan is OFF and we continue our journey.It was around 3am if i not mistaken when we are on the highway.It's even colder,darker and lagi scary!No car weh!!
After abt 20min like tat it was my turn to ride the kapcai.
Full throttle,we are riding the kapcai at top speed...80km/h. -__-
During the journey,i shaked like shit at times cuz it was really sooo cold.
While i was riding the kapcai trying to concentrate on the road,suddenly i saw some flashing light from the right side mirror.Those like ambulance flashing light u know?
The light is coming slowly from behind...and we are still riding 80km/h.
We wonder wat car is that.is it a police patrol car?On no not again pls...
Few moments later,the car is next to us.
It's van...
A van tat...carrying..corpse..
It's those van tat carry malay corpse.They call it VAN MAYAT.
*true story okeh.NO JOKES or story making.*
....
My buddy : dont see dont see,juz go ahead..
Me : *SHAKING* yes i m affraid okeh.
Then,i try to go faster as the van is crusing at the same speed wit us.The van is next to us for abt a min b4 i gave up and go slower instead of trying to go faster.It's impossible jor okeh?
What make us scary like mad is...we saw a malay lady in tudung inside the van.
She's most prolly sitting next to the coffin...and she look down all the way.
The van is fully covered wit it's body but there's a small window at the back,and tat's where we saw the lady.
Finally,the van is slowly dissapear as i slowed down the kapcai.
OMG.I m a free thinker but tat time i we was dem takut okeh?Sumore wit the cold weather and the blowing wind... "+__+
Not long after the incident,we changed turn to ride the kapcai.I beh tahan wit the coldnessssss jor.
will update when i m free..hehe
A year ago,i posted a story of mine in my old blog,and today...i think it's time for the ending part.The ending tat i think no one would like it to be.If all this was a movie,i wish tat i m the director.I dont want to be the actor in this kind of movie.A sad movie u'll say?But perhaps this is the movie tat i can gain some very good experience before i can be the director and make a good movie wit good ending.
This is the story i posted before,
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Sorry coz this is too long but i already tried to make it shorter.
Feel free to read. =`)
I started pak toh wit my ex when i was 15(form 3).Got to know her when she moved from KL to my school.Everything went smooth as there's no objection from both of our families as well.We're so happy being together.
5 years and 3 months after that...few months after my ex started working,she got to know new frens and...a guy also.A guy who might be better than me.
I din know abt it untill i found tat she's a bit weird and and she started to treat me so cold.I called her best fren and begged her to tell me wat's wrong wit my ex and finally she told me abt it.I m speechless,i only cried.I talked to my ex parent abt it and cried infront of them but they told me nothin can be done as she's already changed.They cant change her mind.
Yes,she changed.A lot.She's so cruel to me...at last,she asked to end our relationship.It happened on 15th Of Febuary.
For the 1st time in my life i felt i've been hurt so deeply...
Not sure wheter i m stupid,i begged my ex to come back to me and that i'll forgive for wat she has done.
She said no.
And she told me she arent with tat guy but she wan more freedom tats y she wan to leave me.
She's not the gal who i've been together wit for the past 5 years.Almost 360 degree changed.
I tried all my best to keep the relationship but nothin better i can do.
I was totally down,din go to work for 2 days n juz stayed in my room b4 my dad scolded me.
Well,i know tat life goes on...but with a badly wounded heart.Tear is my close fren since then.
I missed her so much,a few months after we broke off i tried to call her...the 1st time i called i din talk,i just heard her voice for a few seconds...i duno wat to say.She din know it's me cuz i called to her house number so there's no caller ID.
But guess wat?She called me back and ask wheter it is me who made the call.
Then,i admit and we started to chat.After tat day,we'll call each other once in a while...untill 1 day,while we was talking on the phone she suddenly cried...so i asked her why?She told me tat she's so regret for what she has done to me.
She even told me tat she's hoping we can start it all over again.
I din answer,i juz cried...(well i admit tat after we broke off i became so weak and i cry easily)
I duno why i din wan to answer her...and wat's even weird is i started to hate her.
Why?Why let all this happened and regret now?
So,she said she'll wait for my answer.Still,we do keep contact but not too often.Everytime she'll ask wheter i've made up my mind to answer her."Don't know" is the only answer i gave her all the time.
Another few months has passed and she seems cant wait and told me tat she's suffering...i really duno wat to do,so i told her tat i'll give her the answer on my birthday.Actually i juz simply said it cuz i cant get the answer for her.
On my birthday,i was drunk badly and i forgot abt it...she oso din call so i juz assumed tats ok...
As i m bein single,i got nothin much to do and spend most of my time chilling out wit frens.So,i got to know a gal from my fren.She's quite a nice person and we went out often after we know each other closer.
Human can fall in love easily...i guess.Tats wat happened to me and the gal.
So,we got together after that.
Human is sumtime weird...unlucky,sellfish and unexplained.I guess i am.
When i suppose to love her as a bf,i did not.
When i suppose to forget abt my ex and start a new relationship wit this gal,i cant.
When i suppose to feel happy,i keep thinking abt the sad things.
When i suppose to do better for this new relationship,i broke it.
This time,i've been cruel.I'm sorry.
The above is wat i did when i m wit the gal.We broke off abt 3months after we got together.It's me who called it quit.
I made the desicion cuz whenever i m wit her i'll think abt my ex...i alwiz compare her wit my ex and i thk of my ex even more than b4 i m wit this gal.
I feel guitly n lost...so i juz gave up.
I din say broke off wit her or even tell her the reason...we juz ended like tat.
So,after i ended the relationship...i wish to start it over wit my 1st ex.
After this all happened,i realised tat she's the 1 i love the most and i cant forget abt her...
I wana get back to her and i really hope everything will be fine,no more pain and that i can find back all the happines tat have been missing for quite sumtime.
I really hope for that.
So,I contact back wit my 1st ex...and this time,she told me tat she's movin to JB to further her study and said she dowan to think of relationship now as she wan to concentrade on her study.
Is God is playin me??Tats wat i alwiz ask...
But nvm,i hv gone this far....i cant give up this time,i told myself tat i'll do wateva to change her mind not to move to JB and accept me back.
Time passed so fast,she went to JB and i cant make her stay or even accept me...
It's hurt to know tat she's so far away now...
I told her i'll wait for her....wait untill she finish her study and come back.
She said juz let the fate to decide for us.
Maybe once in a month,she'll be back in KL.She promised will call me wheneva she's back.She did.
Abt 4 months ago,like usual she came back and we went out.
I was so surprised tat the day turned to be a very very happy day for me cuz we're seems so close,juz like when we was together last time.We did hold hand... :)
The next day,she's goin back to JB again...i m so sad but we'll contact thru ICQ or phone call sumtime.
I know things is getting better for us...tats so sweet.
A few days after tat,i asked her wheter we're back together.
She : Im sorry but...i think i wont be meeting u anymore
Me : Why??
She: My boyfriend doesnt like me to meet u...
............
Me : Why u lied to me....?
She : It's u who make things worst,u never call me to give me the answer as u promised to do so on ur birthday! *did i really make things worst?*
Me: Yes it was my fault but i really forgot cuz i was drunk on tat nite...
She : STOP giving me excuses!
Me : Excuses??I m telling u the truth!And u did not call me as well?why?
I've been cheated n cheated n cheated.....
She told me tat she already knew her new bf BEFORE she went to JB,b4 tat her bf is working in KL when she got to know him.
She has been telling me all the lies all this while!!
Bcoz....
The guy is from JB,he went back to JB few months b4 my ex decided to go to JB to further her study....
My ex wanted to go JB to study bcoz of this guy....
And i was too dumb,i neva expected she'll cheat me...i was so so so so stupid.
I begun to hate myself for still loving her...i juz cant control.
It's already 1 year and 6 months after we broke up.So much things happened.
Sumtimes it's really like a movie playin back in my mind all the past memories.
My heart feel damn pain...u know,when u wan to cry but u cant.. ur heart will start to feel tat pain.Real pain.
I did not contact wit her anymore...perhaps i'll never again.
All this things tat happened caused a very weird feeling for me.
I duno wheter i hate her or not.
I dun cry nowadays,but the pain is worsen.
Maybe this time i was wounded internally...
Only sweet memories and pain left now....
Since then,i asked a lot of ppls how to overcome this feeling...
Many told me tat if i can share my problems wit others it might help a lil bit.
I've been hurt so so so much.I need a super medicine.
So i decided to write abt my story and post it here to share wit everyone..
By sharing my problems wit others it does helped me to reduce my
sadness. =`)
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This is the story i wrote a year ago.
And today,i got to know tat my ex...she's pregnant.My fren saw her yesterday and juz now she buzz me on MSN and asked me wheter i still contact wit her nowadays.
About 1 month+ ago,after a long long time that i din contact wit her,i sent her a sms to ask how is she doing.I was extremely shocked when she told me tat she's already married and hope tat i wont sms her anymore as she dont want her husband to have any misunderstanding.
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And today..my fren told me tat she's pregnant.
It's 2years+ since we had separated.It's not long and not short as well...but,i really never expected tat all this thing will happen in such a short period.
I m sad not bcoz tat she's married now and i got no chance as i m already accept tat she's no longer the girl that i loved before and nothing can be change at this stage...
It's bcoz...now i knew that i m totally forgotten by her.
And realising that things is changing very fast...i start to affraid that i can't adapt to this situation.
I dont know how to explain better,so many things has happened lately...
Right now,i just feel like being alone..and reminiscing..i know it's not right but,tats wat i feel like doin.
I dont want to be a director nor an actor at this moment,i just want to be the audience.
Sorry if i m neglecting anyone and if you are one of them....i m really sorry.
I m so lost that i need so much time to get back on track..It's not only about relationship but my work,future and...everything.Things is not goin so well and as i wished.
Thanks for spending time to read.
Let the lyric says it all. =) This is wat a lazy blogger do...
退后 | Tui Hou | Stepping Back - 周杰倫
天空灰得像哭过
tian kong hui de xiang ku guo
The sky is so gray that it looks like it just cried
离开你以后
li kai ni yi hou
After leaving you
並沒有更自由
bing mei you gen zi you
(I) did not regain more freedom
酸酸的空氣
suan suan de kong qi
(From) the air
嗅出我们的距离
xiu chu wo men de ju li
(I) smelt our distance
一幕锥心的结局
yi mu zui xin de jie ju
A heart breaking ending
像呼吸般无法停息
xiang hu xi ban wu fa ting xi
is continuous just like breathing
抽屉泛黄的日记
chou ti fan huang de ri ji
The yellowing diary lied in the drawer
榨乾了回憶
zha gan le hui yi
(had) pressed dried [our] memories
那笑容是夏季
na xiao rong shi xia ji
That smile is summer
你我的过去
ni wo de guo qu
Our past
被順時針的忘记
bei shun shi zhen de wang ji
Has been forgotten as time goes by
缺氧过后的爱情
que yang guo hou de ai qing
Love after anoxia (lack of oxygen)
粗心的眼泪是多余
cu xin de yan lei shi duo yu
Careless tears are unnecessary
我知道你我都没有错
wo zhi dao ni wo dou mei you cuo
I know that the fault is not in either one of us
只是忘了怎么退后
zhi shi wang le ze me tui hou
We just forgot how to step back
信誓旦旦给了承诺
xin shi dan dan gei le cheng nuo
We made promises to each other with confidence
却被时间扑了空
que bei shi jian pu le kong
Yet it has been emptied by time
我知道我们都没有错
wo zhi dao wo men dou mei cuo
I know that the fault is not in either one of us
只是放手会比较好过
zhi shi fang shou hui bi jiao hao guo
It's just that letting go would make things easier
最美的爱情回忆里待續
zui mei de ai qing hui yi li dai xu
The most beautiful love is to be continued in [my] memory
